Wednesday, April 22, 2009

i believe this is the best poem

Valentine for Ernest Mann

You can't order a poem like you order a taco.
Walk up to the counter, say, "I'll take two"
and expect it to be handed back to you
on a shiny plate.

Still, I like your spirit.
Anyone who says, "Here's my address,
write me a poem," deserves something in reply.
So I'll tell you a secret instead:
poems hide. In the bottoms of our shoes,
they are sleeping. They are the shadows
drifting across our ceilings the moment
before we wake up. What we have to do
is live in a way that lets us find them.

Once I knew a man who gave his wife
two skunks for a valentine.
He couldn't understand why she was crying.
"I thought they had such beautiful eyes."
And he was serious. He was a serious man
who lived in a serious way. Nothing was ugly
just because the world said so. He really
liked those skunks. So, he reinvented them
as valentines and they became beautiful.
At least, to him. And the poems that had been hiding
in the eyes of the skunks for centuries
crawled out and curled up at his feet.

Maybe if we reinvent whatever our lives give us
we find poems. Check your garage, the odd sock
in your drawer, the person you almost like, but not quite.
And let me know.

- Naomi Shihab Nye

Friday, April 17, 2009

Divine Romance

I love that song. I mean oh my gosh such an amazing song. 
yes Lord I want to sing and dance for you!
I want nothing more than people to say that girl loves jesus. 
I want nothing more than people loving Jesus!
I have fallen down but i havent given up. 
We all go through time where we just have had it our lives seem like God is just not working and he is not caring about our feelings but its not true and I know it now. 
Tonight was an awakening for me. Mikaela could have done some things other than church but she literally battled herself to get to church and i need to be an example to her otherwise that may not happen again. 
Its time to stop being selfish its time to put more attention into other people and put more effort into Gods glory. 
I want this romance with my lord my god to grow and it wont be growing if i spend more effort into myself than others. I believe strongly that if you want to grow in the Lord it starts and ends with Jesus and Jesus focused on other people. 
LORD I AM READY NOW DO WHAT YOU WILL!
these songs we sing out to the Lord are relevant and we need to practice what we preach or we need to do what we say we will. 
If it takes blood, sweat, and tears i will make it through this funk that i have been in i will not let all that i have worked for with my Jesus to perish. NO more am i going to waste my life. NO MORE.
"For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love"

Thursday, April 9, 2009

sex, drugs, and rock and roll...

Why is it that everything that is out there musically has something to do with either sex, drugs, or rock and roll?
When did life start revolving around shit like that instead of if you can actually compose real music?
Sure there are some amazing musicians but nobody pays attention to them.

Anyways, that was just me venting while listening to a radio station haha.
The real point: I feel my friends passing and going, I am really wayyy to dramatic. I get so sad over everything these days and i cant help but wonder what happened to carefree Maquel?
People can make up their own minds about who they wanna know and who they don't and i know that but somehow it still hurts all the same.
I probably should learn to just be happy with my life now not later?
If i dont set expectations i cant be upset. God is much bigger than any expectation i set and its not fair to put that on him. i have been in a funk that i cant seem to shake.which only adds to the life falling apart feeling. Hmmm....life should not be so complicated lol.