falling in love

I have been learning a lot about myself lately.
Good and bad.
I am learning that i need to love myself before I can love other people. Its challenging, especially when the world is so analytical and judgmental. I think its been great though realizing how much I can do and that I am capable of ALL things. My mind is a powerful tool and I need to use it more. I am blessed to have Jesus who helps develop me, into the person I should be.
Ive got both shoes on and im running towards something positive.

a little reminder....

Jesus walked through the toughest alley's the most awful parts of this world. He loved the people he saw. He can do everything, he can play music, he can sing amazingly, he can move mountains, he can do ANYTHING he wanted to do but yet he still took the time to talk and love on the people who needed it most and the people who didnt need it at all. 

Why, is it so hard for everyone else to do the same. 

I mean seriously its time to fucking grow up. I am dead serious its getting to the point i cant take it anymore. Jesus wants a church that loves people, that wins the lost, that is united, that is building up believers, that is sending the sanctified, that is uncomfortable. 

I want what Jesus wants and im sure a lot of people do too. 

I dont know how to fix the problem, but i know i am not gonna be apart of the problem. 

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I love Jesus,
He is the source of my life.
I decided to focus a blog on him only him none of myself.
Because my blogs have been pretty selfish?

Faithwalkers was a huge blessing, God is so amazing to have allowed the conference to happen. I bet he cant wait til next year, i bet he just smiles when he hears us calling out to him with intense passion no night could top those nights with that many people pouring their hearts out to HIM.

God rejoices when we rejoice.
God mourns when we mourn.

We are never alone.

Thats a beautiful thing, God is beautiful.
I am so glad he has been flooding my mind, and im glad that my heart burns for him. I am glad that i see people just grow and grow and grow and grow and grow and that is so encouraging to know that God is at work all the time and we are blessed to be able to notice it.

I could go on all night just listing Gods amazingness but im guessing you already know just how amazing he is because each of us have our own personal relationship with God and he allows it to be so intimate no person can have the same experience as the next.

too much

today i have nothing to say.
which is odd because i usually say too much.
Sundays are always so weird and slow.
Im pretty ready for summer, i love the winter but it puts me inside my head too much.
In the summer, i can step outside camera in hand ready to capture Gods beauty on film (not really film but ya get the idea?)
I can step outside with my heart on my sleeve ready to just talk to my creator.
I can step outside and spend quality time with my family playing volleyball and watching horseshoes fly around.
In the summer, i can focus on God more because im not stressed about school and i actually get enough sleep.
That is not what i want for me though, i want to be able to focus on God the same all the time.
In struggles, in joy, in anger, in cold, in heat, in everything.
Its what my heart needs to stop wanting stupid temporary desires.

ipods and God.

I challenged myself to listen to God-approving music.
I didn't think it was gonna be so rewarding as it has been especially not this soon.
Its really gooood for the soul [my phrase lately]
Its already been clear that reading in the morning while doing school is not an option for me.
God knows that ive told him numerous times. I mean i'm sure i could do it if i tried reallly hard but, its nearly impossible to get up early enough for that.
one thing i do good in the morning is turning on my ipod.
So listening to good music that is good for the soul and reminds me that God is awesome is a must for me now. It doesn't renew my mind as much as the word will but, it does help make me think about jesus ALL day long.
Ah man Praise the Lord!

intellectual

No matter what I do God is always there.
He's like that one person who follows you around.
He is the one you try to hide from.
He is the one underneath the bed.
He hides in the closet, and he breaks into your soul.
He steals your heart.

Just like the follower, who copies your every move, lets be his follower.
And copy his moves.
Lets be so dependent on him that he feels like he wants to get away from us.
Lets get underneath the bed with him having late night conversations.
Lets leave the door to our soul open for him so he doesn't have to break it down himself.
Instead of stealing hearts, we give them willingly.

I let him do what he wants
Because what he wants is always good.

set my heart on fire

"The offered lives of the weakest ones are known to change the world"

I am in love with that line. How amazing is it to think that God loves us at our weakest and at our strongest?
We need to break down before we can offer our lives and now I get why dawnya always says "before you know the lord you have to be broken"
Prideful people can never give there whole lives to god, and that's usually the people who are having a good time.
I wanna live for christ and I am going to do it. Nothing is gonna stop me.
In sadness, I will hold onto gods hand tightly
In bitterness I will talk to god
In anger I will cry out to god
In happiness I will praise the lord
In another place I will be faithful to the lord
In all of the many emotions, places, and people I will LOVE the Lord.