too much

today i have nothing to say.
which is odd because i usually say too much.
Sundays are always so weird and slow.
Im pretty ready for summer, i love the winter but it puts me inside my head too much.
In the summer, i can step outside camera in hand ready to capture Gods beauty on film (not really film but ya get the idea?)
I can step outside with my heart on my sleeve ready to just talk to my creator.
I can step outside and spend quality time with my family playing volleyball and watching horseshoes fly around.
In the summer, i can focus on God more because im not stressed about school and i actually get enough sleep.
That is not what i want for me though, i want to be able to focus on God the same all the time.
In struggles, in joy, in anger, in cold, in heat, in everything.
Its what my heart needs to stop wanting stupid temporary desires.