alone...

so lately, ive been alone pretty much everyday not counting school and its really put me inside my head. Im stressed because i might not have enough money for a place when im 18 which is NEXT year. I probably dont have the grades or the money for college, so i guess im going to be flippin burgers for the rest of my life. Hey! that sounds like such a wonderful future to look forward too.
I am not sure what God has planned for my life but honestly it doesnt look good at all.
God is good i dont doubt it one bit, its just i have no friends, no money, no 4.0, no time, i am finding it hard to be an optimist when your basically a loser.
I knew that my life had to get bad again, usually that happens when you think your doing alright.
what happened to my friends, i didnt think i was that bad of a person.
I am learning that family is really all you have in life, and i barely have that.