you had a bad day....

"one thing i've learned is we never feel the heat until we get burned but we try so hard not to die sometimes we forget to appreciate life"-spill canvas

 

I get so comfortable sometimes, that i become pretty naive in a sense. 

I forgot how quickly something could go wrong...

No need to explain my horrible day just know it was horrible!

Why can't life go well for once?

I may be dramatic but im pretty damn sick of being on the defense. 

Why am i being attacked everytime i just make a decision?

I dont think that i make bad decisions because i try my best to make the decision i think god would want me to make. I hope that im not being oblivious to my problems. 

My walls have come back and I dont know how to break them down. I made some progress only for it to be thrown out the window. 

All i know is i was like this before, lethargic, but then i changed it and became just happy with myself and happy with my wonderful Lord and i wouldnt be so quick to pass judgement and I wouldnt immediately think a new friend was going to hurt me in the end but now its back to the first one. 

hah, what a way to boost self esteem and self worth right?

I am tired of hearing dont worry about it, or its okay or whatever people tell you when your sad. 

I want change and I dont know how its going to happen....I am at my wits end and I dont think i can fight for change anymore. 

exhaustion is my worst enemy and my best friend. 

I need the Lord more than i ever have before but, why do i find it so hard to trust him fully?

I know he is faithful and trustworthy and I KNOW HIM, and love him but, yet i lack full complete trust and thats probably one of the most important ones of them all. 

I am hoping and praying i finally get it together.... even if my life sucks still all i need to do is fully trust God. 

Jesus, I am ready to come home.