the fifteenth time i get something from a paramore song

"The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero
Well I can see behind the curtain (I can see, yeah yeah)
The wheels are cranking, turning,
It's all wrong the way we're working
Towards a goal, that's nonexistent
It's nonexistent, but we just keep believing"

We are such selfish, prideful, individuals. Living to glorify ourselves.

I get so frustrated with myself i want to do what God wants me to but, my flesh screams that i need to do what i shouldnt do.

I wish i could take the easy way out and just surrender but thats not an option.

Jesus is the only thing that should matter and he should come above all else. I can't wait to get out of this slump and just step back up with jesus in my focus.