prayer

well, I was greatly impacted by the same old book again, the Signature of Jesus.
Its pretty amazing. I love it so much.
I was reading it today and it just really convicted me. I will pray so much but never really want the answer or at least want the answer God is going to give me. Sometimes i ask for things but i already have my expectations laid out, God does not go with what we expect of him, EVER.
I forget that and so i just keep asking and keep asking and then wonder why later because God gave me the right answer but definitely not what i wanted at the moment.
I think that the harder the times the more thankful I am.
I love that Jesus causes suffering even though i hate it too. It builds me and makes me tough and thats always a good thing.
I need my ass kicked sometimes especially if you heard my prayers lately haha.