kind of lame, but whatever.

I can't help it, these feelings rushed in.

I want to scream, I need to breathe.

I want to win, I need to lose.

I've been playing games, playing God.

This is destroying me.

I can't help it, your all i see.

Why can't I feel any differently?

I wish i could become somebody else

somebody different.

This is building me.

I can't help it, you're challenging me.

I have been working, working too hard.

You have been working, working so easily.

I am sinking, God teach me how to swim.

You are increasing.

I can't help it, I'm stubborn.

since when was this not allowed?

I'm making things way too interesting.

I don't want this, but I am lying.

I am decreasing.

I can't help it, I'm in love.

you are the match to my slow steady heart.

It's chaotic, but i am captivated.

I am selfish, undeserving.

We are becoming.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

Jesus, is my everything, and yours too.

He is shaping us, making us fit together.

He calms the static, shows me the way to go.

I am selfish, I am undeserving.

This is what grace is for.

Patience is what I need, thank God you have some.

I love you, I love you enough to work as hard as i need to.

I love you, I love you enough to sacrifice whatever i have to.

God is my focus, my treasure is you.

I just wanna know how this is all going to fit.

I trust you God, I trust you.

I want to feel, I need to feel safe.

I am in your arms, and that is forever.

You are capable, you are in control.

I don't need to worry anymore.

Prayer for my life

"A long day alone
Emptiness is so real
Never having peace of mind
Running from what I can't see
And there is nowhere left to hide
Turn and face these empty eyes
All alone, heart untold
Trying to find

Break me down replace this fear inside
Take this nothingness from me
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down

I try to find myself
I find the stranger trapped inside
And I'll take one more step away
From the face I used to recognize
Familiar shadows closing in
Suffocating fear descends
It comes alive, uncovered eyes

I'm trying to find
Break me down replace this fear inside
Take this nothingness from me
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down

Replace this fear inside
Take this nothingness from me
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down

Break me down
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down [repeat]

Break me! "

-Red

There are some things in my life that I am uncertain about, and all it amounts to is me panicking.

I need to let go and let God haha.

I just get so anxious and so scared when I don't know what is coming.

I have lost myself completely yet again and I am really frustrated about that. I want to know who I am and be secure in that but, i need to be okay with being unsure and i need to be okay with my insecurities.

I need God to show me who I am, MAKE me who I am.

I want to be the best for him, and the only way to do that is to lose myself completely.