sometimes i forget how awesome God is. How no matter what happens he is still God and that is enough for me.

victorious

Jesus tells us many times the we have victory because of God. Well, we do but i think there is a very small catch. Do I choose to live in that victory? Is God victorious in my life, in my hearts, in my mind?

Do I let God win? Or do I simply get in the way?

words are cheap but love it speaks the volumes that make our hearts grow weak.

1 john 3:18-20

Was really mind blowing for me in my quiet time today. It brought me back to reality a little bit.

God is totally greater than our feelings. He has the ability to bring sadness to happiness and thats probably why i love him so much. He does more than i could ever do on my own (which is very much appreciated) and he does more than i could ever imagine. He has the answers to everything even before i begin asking for them. Gods love is more than just silly words. Its the kind of love that brings chills to my bones. It shakes the earth. His love is real and unmovable its unconditional and eternal and I could never ask for anything more than that.

God is Good.

i felt really bad this weekend, but yet sooo good.

I love my friends, more than i ever have ever. I feel accepted now not that it ever really mattered but, it does feel good to feel like your just liked for who you are and not what you are. I love the Ohana they are great people. I felt bad because I chose fun over Church on friday. Which was absolutely pointless because we ended up waiting in line for nearly an hour and a half and spent most of the party trying to track down Taylor and JJ who just decided to vanish. So many things that night just reminded me Church comes first. I didnt put it before God though, which is a good thing more so than church. Still, Church is a huge part of my life and my walk with Christ. Im so happy for Shantae shes finally realized that Jesus is the only way and shes really seeing it clearly now. Praise GOD! Also, i didnt die learning Stick Shift and im feeling good :)

joy

"always be joyful" 1 thessalonians 5:16

Today i felt a strange joy, and i didnt necessarily have a reason for it. I love those days. Jesus wants us to have a joyful life, not one filled with drama or whatever so even if we think we have no real reason to be joyful, we should JUST DO IT!

Acts

One of the first things I was told to do when i first believed was to read john all the way to revelation. I was so stoked to do it too I had a real thirst for God, but as soon as i got to Acts that thirst was lost. I liked the other ones cause they had real meaning to me at that moment, like grace and love. Acts was just full of history and stuff about churches. Needless to say i was bored out of my mind by the second chapter so i just stopped reading. Dawnya only told me to read to revelation so i had no idea where to read instead. I was too afraid to ask, i didnt wanna get told to do what i was told. As i grew up in my faith, I soon realized that it was stupid to not read it. Here i am tackling it again, nearly 2 years later and its been blowing my mind. Its so good to know about Paul and the early churches. Its so refreshing to here what Paul tells them. Its so convicting to watch him act out what he told them. I am now a firm fan of Acts and im not all the way through it yet. Oh the things God does for us, I love that every book in the bible is going to speak to each one of us a different way and that it all has meaning in my life and its really my guide to life.

Summertime.

So the biggest thing God has taught me this summer through CSU and Outreach and his word is that people are going to die and they either go to heaven or they go to hell. I haven't sincerely cared about the ones going to hell and i certainly haven't paid much attention to the ones going heaven. I have been wrapped up in my own stupid stuff to really care about anything other than myself and my relationship with God. Luckily, there is a God and he is faithful and he loves me enough to slap me in the face and shout WAKE UP! so here i am beat down realizing I need to be committed to sharing the gospel, sharing this freedom i have in Christ. So he heals any injuries from being convicted and gets me rolling on the right track. People are not scary by any means they are nice and friendly and sometimes bitter but, who cares? It shouldn't effect my ability to share truth or any one elses. That was one thing that was holding me back but, unfortunately i got the opportunity to spend lots of time with CSU kids and i had interesting conversations with a range of people. If anything the tougher conversations are better because they test your own faith and your own knowledge of Christ. The good thing is God has a plan and whoever you talk to isnt on accident, God can use you for their salvation either now or later.