How could i have been so selfish?

somehow, the Lord showed me how selfish i am being in this situation i have came across AGAIN, i dont know how i got that out of a grace teaching but somehow i did.
probably because, if i didnt have grace id be going to hell for being so selfish.
Uh, obviously in every situation you can always count on the Lord to help you through.
I have been very selfish in these two ways:
1. not praying for anything related to this situation just kinda keeping it secret cause i felt the need to do that... which is terrible
2. not praying that God will use me in this situation.

so either way it was a baddddd choice i made. I dont want hearts to break tonight, nor any other night. So Lord, i pray you change my heart tonight.

"Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I'm back home in the house of God for the rest of my life. "
AMEN LORD