I am OKAY

I am no longer bitter, and i couldn't be any more happier.
To trade God on the shelf for anger was a good decision, not that i doubted it at all.
It leaves questions that are bound to be unanswered, but for once I am okay with that.
I am okay that with not eating nearly enough, I am okay with listening to any type of music,
I am okay with being by myself 99.9% of the time, I am okay that I like a boy who doesn't even acknowledge that we were friends at one point, and more importantly I am okay with who I am.
I figured out that i would rather have one good friend that is very dependable and that our friendship is firm (fortunately God has been good and provided that) then trying to have many. I can't make people talk to me, and I cannot make them pursue a friendship with me. I am fine with waiting because I have a friend in the Lord and he will provide what i need whether its many reliable friends or just one.
I am okay that i don't eat everything i need, isn't that why i started taking a multi-vitamin?
I am okay that my music style doesn't fit anybody elses, that i am free to like what I like even if nobody i know likes it as well, except for maybe Shantae cause she just likes everything haha.
I am okay with my obvious need whether it be by choice or not to be independent. I don't need to be bitter because I sit alone or I walk alone, or whatever the situation be. Anger has no place in this heart anymore and i guess i blame it on this verse
"Many will say they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable?"
I think God gets me, and i think he gets my sense of humor?
I could not be any more satisfied with the Lord, and I don't ever wanna doubt him again.
God Bless! I love you :]