Love

love was put in a new light for me tonight.
Good thing i went to Deeper, i need that i need to be more consistent and faithful with my groups.

I love that whenever you need God he is going to be there for you, he will fix whatever it is your hurting about. I was beginning to lose sight in that, i was thinking God didnt care and that i was left to fight on my own. That is NOT true, he never leaves us, basically were stuck with him.
I love Jen Cameron for repeatedly telling me that shes glad i come even when i just sit by myself.
It encourages me to still come, still do what i know is right for me whether i like sitting there by myself or not i still should go because, screw what i like because when i like something it raises my expectations and when there not met i get into a rut haha and also its only good for me, no bad can come from learning about my God and seeing people who are in love with him.

I love being on fire, i need that again. I have come to the conclusion it is the only way to live, period.
So yeah, love, ive never felt it so much in a group since i stopped womens group but tonight it felt real to me again. I am looking forward and ive got a lot of changing to do but i am prepared because God is on my side, holding my hand all the way through the trials and hardships, and through the joys.

(nothing to do with the "topic" but whatever haha)

I was listening to this song by T.I. (hah yeah Jesus and T.I. strange)

it wasnt the verse he shared at the beginning that caught my attention it was the words he spoke...

"ive been traveling on this road so long, im just trying to find my way back home"

That just hit me right in the gut, the old me is gone and i need to just focus on the me now. I spend so many hours of my life thinking about who i used to be and some parts that i wish i could change or what not. That stuff doesnt matter anymore because i know i am a better person now, i am definitely wayyyy more committed to my Lord and that is all that matters to me.