Where is the love?

I feel like I can learn a lot from other peoples messes.
I have seen the destruction of not following God, and I am terrified of ever not following God now. I have been struggling for a while now with my relationship with God and I have been getting the wake up call I needed.
I want God more than I ever have before.
I have realized the biggest thing in the world, in the church, in everything, and that is LOVE.
The simple four letter word that is never easy, because it is too easy.
God just loves us, he just does, it's easy for him to love us.
He loves the broken parts, he loves us when we are making foolish mistakes, he loves us when we don't love him, he loves us when we are too hurt or too broken to even feel a damn thing, HE LOVES US. Why is is so hard to feel that love? Why is it so hard to see it? Why is it so hard to extend that love to our friends, our coworkers, the strangers on the street, our family, just anybody?
Why can't we just love because God loves? Why can't it just happen?
People struggle, people do bad things, people do good things, people suck, people hurt others, people say rude things to people, people make people feel like shit, people do a lot of things that cause a lot of hurt in a lot of people. It is just what we do.
What God does is the exact opposite, he just loves, he just helps, he just listens, he just comforts, he just is good and he just is God.
God is the only reason I can live happy, God is the only purpose I can look forward to when everything sucks, I want to love like God loves me, I want to love God so much that I can't even walk, I want it to be the realest thing in my life.
I want to work on myself and how I look at the people around me. I want to not see any of the sin, I want to just see people who need me to love them.
Sometimes, the lines get blurred. Sometimes trying to love someone ends up just hurting them. Sometimes knowing what to do or what to say is so fuzzy, but i think that when that happens the focus should be on finding what you shouldn't do and what you shouldn't say instead.
Sometimes the most powerful moments, the most helpful moments are in the silence.