By Your Side

Paul Porter played the song By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North one time at church on Friday night. I keep thinking of it over and over.

"Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you"

I can't get over how much this song is what God has to tell me constantly and most of the time it takes me weeks to hear him.
I run so far, and so fast it is ridiculous.
I don't know what to do sometimes and instead of coming to God in my weakness I run away until I feel strong enough to come back.
Which doesn't even make any sense at all because, God is how I am strong. I have my problems my struggles my brokenness and God wants to be there for me in all of it and through all of it. It is so silly for me to run.
Things these days have not been okay, and I am just realizing now for the 24th time in my life (or something like that) that God is FOR me not AGAINST me and that he is by my side always and I need to let him be there for me.
I need to let God love me.
I need to let God hold me.
I need to let God be my comfort and my strength.