for heavens sake I know your sorrrrrrry

"Sing is a song and well sing it back to you"-paramore

I feel my world moving around me, not with me like I'm thinking it should be. I need my Jesus, he is something I'm relying on more than everything else. He balances everything out. I am okay, because I'm resting in the Lord. Me and my mom are really close all of a sudden, I know she's saved. I can just feel it...if that makes sense?
I've got a lot fo reasons to be smiling, why do I always seem to be faking lately.... I wished I could turn off my feelings so I couldn't fake fall in love (new terminology for like) anymore. I'm not sure my life is supposed to make sense, or feel comfortable, and I just want the snow.
I wanna let my anger out, in a positive way, which includes, snowball fights. Maybe when I get my piano I can be more productive?

On another note: marylyn manson has a song that's called "in the valley of the shadow of death" its beautiful. In a crazy way, and mindset. I've felt like he does like he says in the song "I feel so worthless, I feel so discarded, but I know that I am not alone"
Sometimes its easy to feel so bad and so unworthy, but we can always come back to the fact were not alone and that jesus is holding us up.

My world is moving around jesus, and jesus is pulling me along with him.